Tablet’s running my essay about the weirdest thing that happened to me due to my OCD, which is so freaky that it’s taken years for me to write about. The only reason I finally did so was because I’ve seen some talk about these symptoms in Orthodox magazines, but none in mainstream media, and almost all of it was written either anonymously or by a non-sufferer. It became important to me that people know they are not alone, not losing their minds, and that they get help and understanding that they need.
I’m getting incredible, supportive feedback, thank G-d. A couple people have reached out to me because they or a relative have scrupulosity or OCD in general, so I thought it might be good to share a few more resources.
- I mentioned Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski in my article, and several of his books (as well as his column in HaModia‘s Inyan) address intrusive thinking. Here’s a list of his books.
- While I was writing this article, my editor — the lovely Wayne Hoffman — shared two articles with me on the topic. The first is in Jewish Action. The second is in The Jewish Week.
- Rivki Silver pointed me towards this audio bit with David Adams, interviewed on Fresh Air about his new book about OCD. The interview is quite long, but so good that it’s worth spending a half-hour or so listening.
And a final message: The events I detailed in my essay happened about 14 years ago, and I’ve needed periodic help since then, particular after the births of two of my children (because OCD can worsen while pregnant or in the period following delivery). I also had to combat a related phobia of driving (which I’ve previously written about in Binah). The single most helpful tools have been support groups and therapists who have employed CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). Don’t be afraid to get help! And never feel alone!
